I have been saved from dying on the cross
by a lady who smokes pot
writes songs and stories
and is much kinder than the last,
much much kinder,
and the sex is just as good or better.
it isn't pleasant to be put on the cross and left there,
it is much more pleasant to forget a love which didn't
work
as all love
finally
doesn't work ...
it is much more pleasant to make love
along the shore in Del Mar
in room 42, and afterwards
sitting up in bed
drinking good wine, talking and touching
smoking
listening to the waves ...
I have died too many times
believing and waiting, waiting
in a room
staring at a cracked ceiling
wating for the phone, a letter, a knock, a sound ...
going wild inside
while she danced with strangers in nightclubs ...
out of the arms of one love
and into the arms of another
it's not pleasant to die on the cross,
it is much more pleasant to hear your name whispered in
the dark.
This is utterly tragic. Telling you to forget about the feelings in your heaps because, after all, they will only hurt you. That verse... I have died too many times believing and waiting, waiting in a room staring at a cracked ceiling waiting for the phone, a letter, a knock, a sound... while she danced with strangers at nightclubs.
Fuck you. I fucking hate it when things like this cut so deeply. I don't want to forget love, but I don't want to get hurt. How many times have I waited for that phone call? That letter?
There may or may not be strangers in nightclubs. But there is distractions. Heart-breaking distractions. Fuck you.