Swimming and swimming
Wave after wave after crashing wave
I can't believe it's come to this
I can't believe you let it come to this
You bastards
But I swim, and I swim
As another wave crashes into me
Why is it that as soon as I want to stand, to walk, to be, to swim
Another wave comes and tries to knock me down
And knock me under
And immerse me
And submerge me
And make me ashamed?
Why do you always want me knocked down?

But I walk out further
As the waves rise
As the water rises
And I am again knocked down
I can see you out of the corner of my eye
You're laughing
I know now that you hate me
I know now that I must hate you
I never knew before
I never knew before
I need this
Can't you let me have it?
Why is it so alien to you?
Can't you let me have it?
Can't you let me be happy?
Is it so alien for me to be happy?
Is it so bad for you?
Is it too much?
Is it too much to ask to want to be happy?
Is it too much to ask to want to be?

I swim forward
I am knocked down by a wave
And I stand
It's always been like this, you know
Wave after wave
Knocking me down
As I walk towards what I want
There's always another wave knocking me down

As I walk forward I am knocked down
Submerged
I can't breathe under here
But I don't need to air
Air isn't real
I only need to waves to knock me down
That's all you bastards have left me with
I don't need air here
You need air to live
But I haven't lived in to very long
But at least
Here
I can
F
L
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A
T
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

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