Or maybe I just wanted attention.

But I think it's more likely that I hit bottom.

I don't know what happened, but I sort of lost control of myself.

I think maybe it's because I think too much.  I don't know, but it was the absolutely weirdest thing that's ever happened to me.

That and a dream I had last night.

My life has been turned upside down in the space of three nights.

But it's so fucking good to be here.  It's hard to go back to not being at the bottom anymore.  It was such a good feeling.

Relief, I believe it is called.

I want it to happen again.  I want it to happen now.