Strange, she thought, how one has the immediate reaction of guilt and responsibility when one hears of suicide.  If only I hadn't done this, or had done that... I could have averted it.  I'm at fault.  And it was not so in this situation, not at all; she was a total outsider to the Steiners, sharing no part in their actual life, only imagining, in a fit of neurotic guilt, that she did so.