And I want you to know something
I lied
I didn't mean a word of it
It's true
I want you more than ever
And I know it
And I know you know it
And it's like a dance we perform for eachother
Not looking eachother in the eye
Just watching eachother's movements
Graceful
Ageless
Timeless
And soulless, too
Empty
Papers lie scattered around me
The alcohol seeps from my skin
A lie I like to share only with myself
Not even the people in my machine
Not even the people I share my name with
Just myself
Maybe you, too
Once, maybe
Mine to share with myself
Like everything else I have
And you
Where are you?
The voice in my mind
The face in my mind
The face on my fingers, too
Where has that gone to?
Whose fingers are there now?
And where are yours?
Where is your mind?
For that matter, where is mine?
And I lied and I lied and I lied and I lied
And it's never been worse
And I constantly think of what was
Once
Shall it be again?
With another?
With you?
I don't know
You have received a message!
man, people will leave your life
you have to deal with it
Yeah, it's gone
Yeah, it's gone
I'm not here
This isn't happening
I'm not here
I'm not here
I'm never happy unless I'm not
Enigmatic, or just plain ridiculous?
Losing concentration
Emancipation
Blood on the glass
Whose?
Balloon eyes
Scarred cheeks
Lips of nylon and floss
And teeth you don't need
Unclean, death to all in love
Except me, the lover in isolation
Where are you?
I ask again
And again
And I'm back to where I started
Again
Where are you?
Are you alone?
Why are you avoiding me?
I lied when I wanted to be alone
I never wanted it
It was supposed to cleanse me
Of what, I'm not sure
But I've never been so wrong in my life
I just wish you could know that, one day
Of all I wanted
You were everything
And
Of all I felt
You were everything
And
Of all I needed
You were everything
I tried to open doors for you
To give you a larger world
I never thought I'd be shut out